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September 29, 2007

Back from the hospital...

The timing couldn't be any worse. At 4:30 AM (Thursday), I picked up the phone and dialed 911 for myself. I had throbbing pain in my abdomen and I nearly blacked out during the 911 call. The ambulance arrived in two minutes and took me to the hospital with my hubby. After a few tests, the ER doc told me I had appendicitis. I had to have surgery immediately. What??? Here I am thinken' to myself "no way, I'm going to Hawaii on Monday and I have a 10 month little boy to take care of at home. What the heck is going on?" So, I had surgery at noon on Thursday and checked out on Friday. I'm home. I'm tired, exhausted and I'm still packing tomorrow for Hawaii on Monday mornen'. When it rains, it pours. It doesn't end. I'm hopen' to feel good by Monday morning. I'm feeling better tonight. I'm still in a bit of shock though that all this has happened within just a few days of me leaving. Glad it happened here and not on vacation. I may do a little posting at my blog while in Hawaii, so stay tuned. If you don't hear from me by Wednesday..I won't be at the blog till next Tuesday. I'm gone for 8 days..wish me luck everybody! What could possibly happen next? I don't want to think about it...Hawaii take me away!!

September 25, 2007

"Class In Session!"

Scarlet at Studio Calico just contacted me last night and guess what? The "Good Times Mini Album Tutorial" is up and running over at Studio Calico . Just click on the "Events" page under the feature's tab! You'll find pictures and instructions for the project. All ya need is the kit and the two add-ons. I did use a few of my own little items, which I've shared on the supply list. It's only a few tiny things, nothing major. If you don't have time to visit the site today, you can find the pics of the album right here. I've posted them below.

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September 24, 2007

Taking it easy...

I've been taking it easy lately. Just sent in my write-up for the class at Studio Calico along with all the photos. It's nice to have it done. Now we're getten' ready for Hawaii. I've been pondering what to bring with me during our visit. I've been doing some shoppen' these last few days. Picked up a nice make-up travel bag, bathing suit (which is another story), cover-up, clothes, goggles, etc. The list goes on. I also made reservations for Eric and I at the Wailea Grande Resorts Spa. I signed us up for a 3 1/2 hour spa session. They have a hydrotherapy area that we get to use for an hour before the session starts...10 different bathing pools..doesn't that sound divine?! I can hardly wait. I soooo need it right now!! We leave next Monday..I still can't believe it. Almost time to pack the suitcases...time goes by so fast. Hopefully the trip won't go by quickly:) Maybe time slows down in paradise..ya right. Laugh.

Anyway, Eric's been doing really well these last few days. We're enjoying our time together as a family. He's been spending lots of time with Ethan. I love watching the two of them interact. He's also been recording some messages for Ethan via a voice recorder.  It's super easy to use and it's portable. It's worken' out great. Another thing to add to the time capsules..I'll share more about that in the future.

We did meet up with family this weekend at the Apple Orchard for a few hours. We did the hay ride and picked some apples. We also picked up a few apple fritters and an apple cobbler. Both were delicious!  After a few hours, Ethan had enough and was ready to go home...so was mommy. Laugh. The sun was baken' and we were hot! It was great to see family though...

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I have a new layout in the works. It's sitting on my desk as we speak. Since I'm taking it easy this week, it's not getting done all that fast. I'll have it posted by Thursday for sure. Promise.

September 21, 2007

Tropical weather ahead...

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We've scheduled a trip to Hawaii for the first week of October. We take off on the 1st and arrive back home on the 8th.  We're very excited...ok, beyond excited. It will be our first time as a couple flying over the great big ocean to visit a tropical paradise. It's the honeymoon we never had. We managed to arrange this at the very last minute with the help of some very generous people in our lives. We're staying at a beautiful condominium on the northwest side of Maui right on the shoreline. It's private and serene. We're going to tour the island during our stay in Hawaii. We hope to see many of the scenic beaches and landmarks. The island itself is suppose to be full of hidden treasures. We can't wait to see some of them!  We're counting the days till we depart. It's going to be a ton of fun!!

Now onto scrapbook related news. You may notice that I've slowed down a bit with the bloggen'. I've been super busy on a new project that I've been working on for Studio Calico. On September 28 at midnight EST, October's kit "Red Carpet" will go on sale (you can preorder the kit now). You're going to want to grab this kit and some of the add-ons. Studio Calico is hosting a class that I've designed using October's kit. I've put together another "mini album" (I'm sure it wasn't hard to figure out the clue in the last post) for you guys to create and this class is chalked full of details as usual. Lot's of layers, embellishments, and techniques. Below are some sneak peaks of the album:

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Doesn't this album look yummy? It's all about "Good Times" and "Celebrating Life". Visit Studio Calico for class details. They'll be posting class information in the very near future. I will not be hosting the class at my blog.  Though, it will be in a very similar format as the "Transparency Mini Album" tutorial I did here. If you have any questions about the class, please contact me via email. 

September 17, 2007

It Arrived..

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My Memory Makers Master's "I Wish" layout came home today. I contacted them a month or two ago to see if I could talk them into sending me back my final entry.  The lady that received my request over at the mag emailed me back right away. She told me they would send me back my entry and then she shared her own personal cancer story with me. It never seizes to surprise me anymore when I meet new people who are in some way effected by cancer. It's far spreading and effects millions of people a year. The more I pay attention, the more I find it. Yet, when it hits close to home, we're still taken' aback by it. Surprised by it's arrival into our lives. I know I still am, but when I hear other people's cancer stories, I'm reminded that many people belong to this "club". The challenge is accepting the invite. The lady at Memory Makers went ahead and found my layout. I received it in the mail this morning...it was perfect timing.

Here's a close-up. One of my favorite little elements on this layout was the single, velvet brad and the use of the chipboard clock. Two items that had been sitting in my collection for a long time..waiting to be used. I added a little glitter around the clock to make it stand out. It's the thematic centerpiece in the layout. I also love the star-symbolic of dad's special role in Ethan's life.

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September 15, 2007

The Second Half

Eric will be coming home today from the hospital. He's been there four days for his chemo treatment. We received this week's MRI results. The cancer has grown some in the back ventricle wall. Starting October, he'll be doing a new chemo regimen in an attempt to slow the growth even further. The new chemo regimen will be done under general anesthesia with the opening of the blood brain barrier. Chemo is administered while the barrier is chemically open. This allows for more chemo to enter the brain. It's a 100x's more powerful. The side effects of course are a bit more, but we're taking the chance in hope that we can delay the growth of the cancer. They call it the silver bullet. It's our final attempt at getting some more time for Eric. It's of course a riskier procedure and is done at only 8 locations in the world. Everything at this point is uncertain. I've been told that the typical patient only lives 7-9 months after recurrence and this appears to be true for Eric. Patty (primary brain tumor RN at the U of M) has confirmed my worries. We decided to schedule "the big trip" next month. We're going to Hawaii in the first week of October for seven days. It's the honeymoon we never had. It's going to be a special time for the both of us. I'm going to treasure each and every second of the trip. I've been told that with time (sooner than later) that Eric will start to experience some neurological changes as the cancer spreads to the cerebellum. It could happen within months. I decided I'll face that part of the disease when it's here. After much thinking yesterday, it became apparent to me that I need to focus on the present moment. Today. It's so easy to get caught up in tomorrow. It prevents me from enjoying the time I have with Eric..so, we're going to live life to it's fullest for the next several months. The time is ours.

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Here I am preparing for our financial future..signing up for social security at the age of 30. Would of never thought I'd be filling out this form so soon in my life. It takes 5-6 months to process the paperwork and have social security up and running. We're filling out forms, scheduling an interview with the s.s. office, and having the hospital prepare a letter of confirmation. It doesn't pay out much..but, it's something. It should help some when the time arrives.

I have a little peek of the class I'm preparing for that will happen in the next few weeks. Take a look and let me know what you think. I shall share the details when the timing is appropriate. Won't be long. I've been working on this project for a week, so it's absorbed most of my "available" free time. It's been worth it though. I'll share a little more later!

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September 13, 2007

A Hint

I'm just on my way to the hospital this am to spend the day with my husband while he receives chemo treatment. I've not forgotten about my blog. Actually, I have some special plans in the works for you guys. If you loved the last class I offered here, stay tuned. Another class is on it's way and I'll be able to tell you all about it in a few days. Just a tiny, itty-bitty hint - "Mini". That's it. That's all I'll share. I'm sure you'll be able to take a guess at what I'm up to. In the mean time, get ready for Studio Calico's sneak peak of October's kit tonight. You're going to "need" it. Have a great day everybody!

September 10, 2007

Companionship

It's been a very quiet Monday. Eric was away at the hospital for most the day. He had a two hour MRI and a lumbar puncture. His mother took him to the hospital while I stayed back and watched Ethan. We spent the day running errands, but by the late afternoon, boredom set in and so did loneliness. One of the greatest challenges I face right now and more so in the future is the one thing most people fear in life...being alone. I remember during my early twenties how much I hated being alone..I suffered panic attacks when I was alone. I was afraid something terrible would happen to me while alone and nobody would know anything about it. So, I avoided it. I spent most of my time with a person by my side. It took me three years to conquer my "fear of loneliness". I attended therapy with a panic/anxiety specialist during that time.  She provided me with the tools and skills to cope with my fears..it's prepared me for the reality I face now. Even with my son, I experience extreme moments of emptiness..I crave companionship. I feel it more so today knowing that Eric is up for another round of chemo and a four day stay at Fairview Hospital. I miss our old life-the conversations, dating, the day to day routines..all of those things that once defined our marriage. No longer do these things exist on a regular basis. As they start to disappear, the absence of companionship becomes more pronounced...even with the knowledge I obtained via therapy in my early twenties, I'm still not sure how I'm going to manage the sort of loneliness I'll feel when Eric is gone. It scares me on so many levels..I can only hope that when the time arrives, I'll find the strength I need to adjust to the loss of companionship and the quiet nights that follow.  I'm hoping there's a reason/connection in my life for the events that have taken place..that the panic and fear I felt at twenty was the preparation course for the real life I live today. It's  ironic that these two major periods in my life  sit side by side. Partners in God's plan.

Just going to share some photos of Ethan today. I knitted a new hat for him to prepare for the chilly upcoming fall months. I couldn't resist taking some photos after I put the hat on him for a walk outside...it was a good moment.

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One can only guess what this kid is going to do with those rocks..."Don't eat them Ethan!!"

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I suppose a little dirt isn't a terrible thing. Kids. They're so darn adorable.

September 09, 2007

Feels so good to be home...

We arrived home yesterday in the late afternoon from Gooseberry Minnesota State Park. It feels so wonderful to be home. Warm house. Warm shower. Running water. I'm going to tell ya, I'm not the camping type. My husband is the camping pro and he love's the great outdoors. We did have a really good time though...the time I had with Eric was really special. We hiked around Gooseberry Falls, the shores of Lake Superior, and visited a small town called Two Harbors for a nice lunch and a little souvenir shopping. All in all, the camping trip was a success. My second favorite part of the trip (the first being the solo time I had with Eric) was the photo opportunities. I think I left that place with over 400 photos. There was so much to capture. It was hard to set my camera down.  My fave was the moss that was growing in between the rocks on the lake shore. It was so dense in texture and saturated in color. I also loved the old tree roots that could be seen on paths, cliffs, and numerous other locations. Lot's to absorb and admire. Here's some photos from the site (a few anyway, sorry if they take forever to download..it was hard to choose which photos I wanted to share)...

One of the great things about Gooseberry Falls is that it's shallow enough to navigate, even near the edges of the falls. Eric caught this photo of me near the edge of one of the falls...ironically, this very place of being was so relaxing, even as the very edge of life stood next to me.

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My hubby whom I located inhabiting this tree...what's he doing there? A good laugh never hurts.

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A few pics of the falls. Heaven on Earth.

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The beautiful Lake Superior shore...the lake itself is crystal clear and holds 20% of the earth's freshwater. It's also a mild 40 degrees in temp throughout the year..I put my feet in that lake for about 5 minutes and decided it was a bit too cold for me. brrrrr.

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Can't camp without a tall fire and a few visits from the local critters.

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I loved seeing all the contrast and color that surrounded me during the trip..these fallen leaves were seen on a dirt path on our way to the shore..a foreshadowing of fall.

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One of the best things about leaving town was that we didn't have to think about the "C" word. When we got back, we found out that Eric's primary neurosurgeon out of New York, Dr. Hall, got a chance to review Eric's last MRI. He came to the conclusion that the "scar tissue" (which was noted a few months back) that's growing in the same area as the previous tumor is actual "new cancerous tissue". This is in addition to the three spots located in that same MRI last month. We were very saddened by the news, but not terribly surprised. Eric is undergoing another MRI tomorrow along with a lumbar puncture to collect cerebral spinal fluid which will be tested for the presence of cancer cells. After tomorrow, we'll know a lot more about the extent of the cancer and if it has grown over the last month. A new treatment plan may be in our future. We may also have to make some big decisions if the cancer has progressed...it's going to be a tough week indeed. I'll provide an update later in the week on the findings.

Autumn_leaves_2 I picked up the new Autumn Leaves book,  "Designing With Details". I highly recommend this book if you love the "artsy" look..lot's of really unique embellishment ideas...though, I will warn you that some of the materials used on a few of the layouts in the book seemed a bit extreme and over the top..such as the balsa wood sheet that was carved out to illustrate various size letters...sounds like a ton of work to me..but heck, who am I to talk about that. Laugh. It's definitely worth owning.

Some of my fave designers to be seen in the book include Candice Carpenter, Danielle Thompson, & the always reliable Jamie Waters. Love all their work! Just wish Danielle would return to the scrapbook arena..so miss seeing her stuff.

Lastly, I haven't forgotten about the "layering 101 tutorial". I'm hashing out the details. I will provide an update very soon. It will include a project...and a very cool kit club (hint, hint).

September 04, 2007

One last layout before leaving...

We leave early tomorrow morning for Gooseberry. We're packed and ready to go. I'm really looken' forward to getting out and doing some serious relaxing. Bringing my knitting gear and a composition book with me. Rumor has it that it's going to be cold up north. Brought a ton of warm clothes just in case. I've never camped out this time of year, so it should be interesting. We'll be back Saturday. I'll update my blog on Sunday or Monday. Good times straight ahead!!

Speaking of good times..Check out this crazy lady with her kid!

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