Slowing Down

Ok. I've slowed down a bit today. It's the first time this week I've had a few moments to think about where my life is going and how I really feel about it all. Lately, it's been completely chaotic. I haven't been able to keep up with Eric's changing health. I really needed to sit down and sort through my feelings. After confiding in a few family members, I found some clarity and perspective. I had neither of these things yesterday. I felt lost and exhausted beyond belief. Physically ill. Today, I'm feelen' better. Life is ok. Working on ways to help myself and Eric. Often, I forget about myself. It's easy to do as a caretaker. I've been caught up in the moment. Not thinken' of me. Avoiding guilt. Eric's mom reminded me yesterday that I need to slow down and accept help. Let things go. Take care of me. Not feel bad about it.  So today, I've been doing just that...

I've been working on this layout for the last few days. Been mostly scrappen' at night when Eric's sleeping and I have a little free time. I took this photo a month or so ago before Eric's last chemo treatment. We were sitting on the couch together hand in hand. Thinken' about all the years we've known each other. 12 total.