Candid a.m.

I came across this photo of Eric a few days ago. I took this photo of Eric while on a camping trip last summer in Gooseberry Park. It was one of those early brisk mornings and we were trying to entertain ourselves to keep from having to leave the warmth of the camper. We laid in bed for hours. At one point, I picked up the camera during one of our "silly exchanges". It was one of those moments where we thought it would be funny to get a photo of ourselves looken' our finest. The typical a.m. candid shot. Messy hair. Pajamas. Squinted eyes. For gals-no make-up. Ahhh yes, the usual morning look. I snapped a photo of Eric and he took one of me. Of course, I didn't post the picture of me. I don't look as good as Eric in the morning. Laugh. Honestly though, what I really love about this photo is how it captures Eric's great smile and innocent nature. He had a heart of gold and was one of the kindest people I've ever known. I felt so lucky to have him as my husband. I reminded of this every time I look at this photo. It will remain one of my favorite photos of Eric. I already have plans to scrapbook it tomorrow.

It's almost been a week since Eric passed away. The air has gotten lighter and the fog is fading ever so slowly. The shock is wearing away. As my view changes with each passing day and things become a little clearer, I've become more aware of Eric's absence. To pass the time, I've been spending a lot of my free hours with my family and also with Eric's family. Trying to stay busy. I provide myself plans everyday. Each morning I get up and decide what I'm going to do for the day. Usually my mornings start off at around 5 a.m. Ethan gets up and needs caring for. We take a nap in the late morning. I put myself together and we start the day with an activity or two. Yesterday we had lunch with Kathy (Eric's mom), Molly (Eric's sister), and Ella (Molly's daughter). After lunch, I packed our bags for a visit to grandma & grandpa's house (my mom & dad). We stayed the night. Today, we caught an extra nap and visited Pottery Barn Kids with Kathy, Molly, and Ella. I squeezed in a few minutes of scrapbooking this afternoon during Ethan's nap. Trying to finish up a layout. I'll post it Saturday. All in all, we're getting along ok. Not really sure what tomorrow will bring..but, we're not there yet. Trying to stay focused on "now". This is a day to day endeavor. Each day is going to be different.

Thanks once again for your loving, open support everyone. Till Saturday, take care.