I'll admit that I have no routine in my life right now. My day to day living is without structure. I lost routine after Eric died. I didn't give it much thought right away, but over the last few weeks, it's become increasingly apparent to me that not having a routine is wearing me down. Not having a routine has made it challenging for me to identify what I truly enjoy in this new, unfamiliar life. So recently, I gave myself permission to take my life in a different direction. I'm trying on old habits and collecting new ones. What do I want to bring back into my life from my past? What haven't I tried in the past that might be good for me right now? It's all a part of establishing a new pattern in the hope of finding some stability and predictability. It's been a long time since I've had either and I'm at a point where I feel it's time to find both. Change is in progress...
One of the things from my past that I haven't done in a while is scrapbook solely for myself. I'm realizing I need to find balance between scrapbooking and designing. Both play a huge role in my life and the challenge is often trying to figure out how to do both without having to sacrifice one or the other. I recently decided to leave Studio Calico's Design Team. It was a really difficult decision for me. Being a part of a design team isn't just supplies and creativity. There are relationships involved and investments made. In the end, the experience realized is amazing. One you never forget. So many great friends and shared stories. I know many from "The Studio" come to visit my blog. That's why it's so hard to share the news here today. It's a decision that I'm hoping will allow me to find time for personal scrapbooking. It's what I seem to need the most right now..plus, it's an old habit and it's one that brings me great satisfaction. I'm looking forward to seeing how it fits in with my new life.
I did mention "new habits" in the first paragraph of this post. I'm looking at new "roles" within the scrapbook industry. They're a little bit different than what I've done in the past. I'll be able to share more on this topic later on.
A quick last note, I'm guest designing for "All Moments Remembered" in May. The kit arrived at my front door last week and it's lovely. They included a lot of paper from one of my favorite pattern paper manufacturers. I'll be working on layouts using their kit over the next few days. I'll also be joining them for an online chat the evening of NSD. Feel free to join us.
Note: The blog will continue with the changes. I'll still be posting new ideas and scrapbook projects here along with the usual day to day stuff. The only real difference you'll see is more personal work from me. :)