Time and time again I have heard from so many of you about issues trailing 'round anxiety since the posting of last week's events. It's a tremendous relief to find that I'm not alone in my long withstanding acquaintance with the unpredictable ailment. I feel as though it's been burdening me for ages - it's usually always uninvited when it appears, though thankfully, I'm with a whole series of resourceful tools to deal with the matter. It's only on occasion, those moments when I'm seriously stressed, that I can't defy it's emotional and physical paralysis. For me, California spelled out what I'd been failing to hear all along the last four months - my body was tired of the running, the countless deadlines and the routine long, disheveled days of schooling & work. If I had only been paying attention during those rare quiet moments available to me when not caught up in the marathon. Simply put, I was too busy to notice. As soon as things settled some, my body probably figured it was the perfect opportunity to tell me that it was fed up! Well, I've heard it's protests and this week, I made the decision to decrease my credit load by three credits. One less class to cater to this semester and amazingly, I'm feeling ten times better already! I've also decided to not set the expectation bar so high - I had always figured that by now (since the loss), I would have it "all" figured out...laugh. I faced a major reality check with this idea as soon as Eric's third anniversary hit some four weeks ago. There really is "no figuring it out" - life is a process and it can't be rushed! So, I'm giving myself some space to just be at "where I'm at" and forgo the "shoulds" and "musts" that often barrage me on a day to day basis. Hopefully, this slowing down of things will give me some breathing room and keep the panic attacks at bay for good!
Thank-you to all who came through with your own personal struggles with anxiety - even though I wasn't able to respond to every email that landed in my inbox this week on the subject, I had read them all. The stories sounded very familiar to me too and I think we all agreed that we wouldn't wish this tumultuous thing on anyone...It's a major life stopper to say the least!
Moving on, since my school load is slightly less this semester, there was a chance for me to sit down at my desk this last week to work on an ongoing CP Portrait layout. It had originally been intended as a layout for the CP booth, but I'd run out of time to finish it! I finally put the finishing touches on it last evening and then photographed it this afternoon.
This handsome young guy happens to be my adorable nephew, Myles. He's bright beyond words and is a truly special person..I love him to pieces. I pulled this photo of him out as soon as I received the Portrait collection because I thought the collection played well to his personality. Even though he's only six years of age, you'd have to wonder if there was someone "older" inside. He always amazes me by what he acknowledges and understands about the world!
I didn't really get the chance to talk with you about my favorite product releases from the show - it shouldn't be too surprising to hear from me that I'm in love with Crates releases, though there are others that caught my fancy. Pink Paislee made my day with their releases - Hometown and Daily Junque are a must-have for me!! Also, Basic Grey's Sweet Threads made it almost impossible for me to leave their booth while at the show. Hello Luscious was another one of their collections I fell in love with. My Mind's Eye came through again with more beautiful stuff and Bella Blvd. put out some basics that'll eventually find their way into my baskets the next month or two. I guess you could say that I'll for-surely be breaking my budget soon or maybe even skipping the new spring wardrobe! What about you, what's been your fave of the releases?
Had you noticed that Crate Paper antiqued up their brads? The rims are a dark pewter color instead of shinen' silver! I threw one on top a button and trimmed off all excess prong from the back. The only real challenge in doing this is making sure the prongs fit through the holes of the button. Always double check just incase!
I've a thing for patchwork right now. I trimmed similar sized rectangles from each of Portrait's patterned papers and framed them with vanilla cardstock. I then lined them up along the back of my layout in a horizontal line. I could of easily sewn around each one, but was too much in a hurry to do so...my sewing machine sits in my four season, which is nearly twenty/thirty feet too far! Laugh.
Speaking of frames, how many of you out there are loven' these polaroid frames from Crate? I really like that they've created them in multiple sizes for us to use on our projects! Not only are they ideal for photos, but they're also a major perk as decor pieces too! I'm not typically very good about resizing photos to sit beneath pre-made frames, but I'm always will to play with them as part of an embellishment combination of some sort.
I think I see some sewing there! Could it really be?! Laugh. Yes, every now and then I will make the trek to the sewing station, though I'll only use whatever thread happens to be in the machine at the moment instead of switching colors and having to rethread the whole machine again. And this is from the mouth of a quilter! Do I dare admit this?! Laugh. Shame on me....
You know what I'm really into right now? Punches and Vanilla cardstock - two very simple supply items, though numerous applications amongst both! This week I've plans to work on Valentines with Ethan and already I'm contemplating ideas for vanilla cardstock and elaborate border punches. I purchased two dozen or so small kraft paper bags for housing sweet candies and hope to decorate them with bits and pieces of varying eclectic items - I want not any of the Valentine bags to look alike! I'll post them closer to Valentine's Day!
It doesn't seem like I've posted pictures of Ethan for a long while, so I captured these this afternoon and sure enough, he had to be a smarty pants about it! He's getting of the age where he no longer cares to tolerate my camera usage anymore and I can't say I blame him! I've been chasing him with the thing since he was a wee little one - check out this latest smirk! He's still cute as can be though..and he's getting sooo big!! We're nearing the four-in-a-half mark! And have I told you that his latest hobby is cleaning? Yes, he loves to help mom clean!! His gadgets of choice are the vacuum and dusting pan..today, at his request, I bought him a designer dusting pan/brush at TJ Max for $6! He was ecstatic about it...and not surprisingly, so was I! :)
I've a massive undertaking of cleaning and organizing to tend to before the evening's end, so I'm leaving you 'til the next update! Yes, I'm embarrassed to have to admit that I spilled a gigantic puddle of glue (plus some small ones) on the ol' desk last night and there remains a few splotches to be cleaned still. Laugh. I lost an entire jammie set after the glue spewing episode..it was that bad!! I ignored the obvious clogged tip that refused to give up glue and nearly lost the above layout as a result..yes, I'm without patience sometimes, especially at around twelve in the morning!! I suppose this is why most scrapbookers avoid wet adhesive in the first place - oh well, scrapbooking is suppose to be a messy hobby, right?! :)